Reclaiming My Power: From Survival Mode to Trusting ME
What if the storm you're stuck in isn’t outside of you, but within you—and you’re the only one who can calm it?
The past couple of weeks have been a whirlwind. I went from feeling overly concerned and paranoid about my finances to manifesting abundance. As I write this, I feel more aligned than ever with my independence and committed to breaking negative thought patterns that no longer serve me.
Turning 33 this month has already been incredibly life-changing.
Ending a Chapter That No Longer Served Me
Just three months ago, I made the difficult decision to end a relationship that was no longer aligned with my growth. I felt trapped, anxious, and deep down, I knew it wasn’t right for me. My body was signaling what my mind was trying to deny—I couldn’t sleep, I was constantly on edge, and I kept telling myself to stay and hope for change.
But then I woke up one day and realized something powerful: I wanted my partner to be someone he wasn’t. It wasn’t fair to him—or to me. I had to choose myself. I could no longer carry the guilt of hurting someone by telling the truth. The reality is, we are all responsible for our own healing. One of the biggest lessons I learned was this: it’s not my job to save others. My only job is to come back home to myself.
The Storm I Created in My Own Mind
Alongside the heartbreak came intense anxiety around money and stability. I truly believed I was doomed—trapped in a self-imposed narrative that kept me feeling stuck and unworthy. But when I finally stopped trying to fix everything outside of me and got still, I realized: I was the one holding myself underwater.
I was juggling too many expectations—what others would think, how they would feel, what stability was supposed to look like. The relationship, the shared connections, the dream home—all of it faded. But something more powerful emerged: me.
I learned to be my own lifeboat. And once I climbed in, I realized the storm wasn’t as terrifying as I’d made it out to be. It was all in my head. I just had to get out of my own way.
My Breakthrough: Reclaiming My Power
The real breakthrough came when I asked myself: Where am I giving my power away?
Once I reclaimed it, everything changed. I began to thrive on my own terms—financially independent, spiritually grounded, and proud of my self-reliance. I remembered that I am the creator of my own reality. If I had the power to create the chaos, I also had the power to end it.
So what do I want now?
A relationship that supports growth and honors independence
Financial freedom that isn’t tied to anyone else’s rules
Location independence that nurtures my curiosity and creativity
I am my own foundation. I can build whatever I need to feel safe, fulfilled, and whole.
The Next Chapter: My Camper Life Begins
I’m proud to share that I am now the owner of a 2023 Hyundai Santa Cruz—a vehicle that truly spoke to my soul. It’s not just a truck. It’s a symbol of everything I’ve reclaimed. It’s strong enough to pull the camper I’m going to live in full time—my version of security, created entirely by me.
Renovations and adventures are already in motion, and I can’t wait to take you with me on this next chapter.
To My Supporters—and My Critics
To those who have stood by me, even without fully understanding my journey: thank you. Your support means more than you know.
And to those who judge me: I hope you find the confidence to live your truth one day. What you see in me—what triggers you—is simply a mirror of something unresolved within yourself. I see you. I empathize with you. But I no longer carry your projections.
Your Turn: Find Your Lifeboat
I’m closing a major cycle in my life. I’ve outgrown a person, a chapter, and an identity. The weight is gone, and I can breathe again.
If you’re still in the storm, I want you to know: you can find your lifeboat too.
Ask yourself:
What values guide your life—and is your current situation aligned with them?
What fears are keeping you stuck, and who taught you to carry them?
What stories are eating away at your self-worth?
What tools have you ignored that could help you find purpose and passion?
You don’t need to be rescued. You just need to return home to yourself.
✨ If you're going through a storm right now, I see you. Drop a comment or message me—what’s one area in your life where you’re ready to take your power back?
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